| An ant bite me on my eyelid yesterday! |
[04 Jul 2009|12:19pm] |
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What to catch up on, let's see. I went to the mall with Ashley on Monday. I got rad sunglasses that are very Ozzy/Joplin/lennon. But since they aren't big enough to be Joplin's, and they are sunglasses instead of regular lens like lennon, they pretty much just make me look like Ozzy Osborne. ( mas inside )
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| I miss this show. Fee-hee-heee-feeny |
[27 Jun 2009|10:49pm] |
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Goodness, that cast was phenominal. Every single person on that show was fantastic from Cory, to Minkus, from Rachel to the little sister. The show always made me laugh, and managed to pepper in great morals without making me feel like I was watching some cheesy afterschool special. I had the biggest crush on Sean growing up, then he got older and dated Angela. I thought I would have a chance, like maybe I'll grow up and look kind of like her. Then I would have my own brooding, wrong-side-of-the-track-with-a-heart-of-gold type of boy like him one day. ha
UNDERPANTS!
Completely random P.S. I watched that Hitchcook movie Rebecca this morning. Wow! I really wish I had read the book first, though. The plot was great. I already knew about half of the plot twists, but I finished the movie like this :O .
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| Great to have running water full-time again! |
[27 Jun 2009|03:57am] |
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So my mom fixed the broken fauchet all on her own today. Then she begin bragging about it in front of her own son and his friends. I was trying to take a nap when I heard her outside my bedroom saying "YEEEEAAAAAH! I've got 3 men right here and I did it myself. I fixed it without you, bitches! I am woman hear me roar" Then it was off to babysit (got $20), came home with my aunt and cousin and we sat around watching old Micheal Jackson (r.i.p.) videos. After that and dinner I was ONTD_ST for hours, it's just past 4 a.m. and I've been up all night in a party post. My computer must hate me for thier party posts but I can't look away.
My cousin turns four tomorrow (well, today actually) and since my little sister isn't here I don't think I'm going to her birthday party. I could really use one of her b-day cupcakes now. They are piled with yummy buttercreme icing, I want something sweet but there is nothing sweet left in the house. Damn.
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| My computer and body hate me and I don't read fast enough. |
[22 Jun 2009|10:39pm] |
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So, for weeks now, my computer cache has been messing up my mediafire account because everytime I try to go to "my files" to look over or edit something I see this:
I can still view some folders and update so I, at least, have that to be grateful for.
I've been babysitting like crazy. My aunt has been really sick recently and has been having complications with the baby. I think she's had a miscarriage. It's been alluded to, but the fact is I'm so sleep deprived I find it difficult to focus on anything. Over the last week or two I haven't sleep through the night at all. I usually catch some Z's here and there in 3 hour naps. So I hope she feels better, with child or without.
( in other family news )
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| Apparently I was an awesome baby |
[13 Jun 2009|11:38pm] |
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too bad I'm such a shitty adult.
During dinner my aunt and mom went on and on about how great I was as a baby. Really calm, never threw tantrums but my when my brother came we fought a lot. Anyway, the afternoon was full of the typical "Weekend-roam-and-buy". That's when we head to Target or Bealls or where-ever, look around and end up buying crap we don't need and wasting money because there's nothing to do in this town. Though I did get a cardigan for 3 bucks, nice. This morning ( my blogs in going backwards ha) was me being lazy and watching biographies on BIO.com. Addicting! I finally finished Salvador Dali. My computer/that website player is annoying so it takes forever and skips a lot but I finished it. Then I watched a few more. It made me love Harry Houdini. Not only was he a great escape artist but he was a super nice guy. (Then again, I had watched James Joyce before Houdini and Joyce must make everyone look like an angel). Harry was a bit of a mamas' boy, lovely to his wife, spread the truth about many "spiritualist" of the day who were really just scam artists, great talent, clever and there's the added plus of him looking great for all 52 years of his life! Oh! and there were even nude photos of him in the various locks. Naked in chains! in probably the late 1800s/early 1900s. That's like S&M stuff by today's standards and he got away with it then, surreal!
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| Goodness! |
[08 Jun 2009|02:30pm] |
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So Thursday was the kids last day of school. Now I have to deal with them at the house all summer. Friday was fine, we listened to music in the living room played Scene it (Xzavyer won, then I won, and then we quit. It always happens that way). When I won the game Selena was one behind start! She had rolled a one, then got a card that told her to move back two spaces. So she was in the negative when I finished, sheesh! Anyway, Saturday was no big deal either. My mom has gone to verzion four times and I still have the same shitty phone that won't charge long enough, while everyone else had a new one. My nine-year-old sister offically has a cell phone! ABSURD!
Then yesterday, for no apparent reason, the power went out. It went out around noon and didn't come back on for over seven hours!!! What?! It was rumored to be out at Wal-mart too. No one knew why. So I spent the entire day catching up on The Bell Jar. Some parts are so relateable, but for the most part I'm just trying to finish the book so I can read something else already. It's not really grabbing me like I thought it would. I still can't believe that no one knows why, (basically) the whole block would lose power. It was HOT outside too. So, when we lost electricity, it was even hotter inside. My poor brothers' room in a garage, so it was like a sauna in there. We both ended up taking naps in our own rooms. When he came out of his it looked like ran a marathon. His hair was large and frizzy, his face flushed and red, poor thing.
Anywho, I've been watching the biography of Salvador Dali over and over and for whatever reason (like losing electricity) I don't ever get to finish it. But he really fascinates me right now. I kind of want to see Little Ashes. I remember hearing about like "Oh, that guy from Twilight has a funny moustache in some weird movie" but I didn't know he plays Dali until recently. I absolutely love this short he did with Disney. I'm glad it was finally finished.
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| Gasp! Squeal! |
[02 Jun 2009|12:17am] |
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It looks absolutely amazing! I don't know who would be as excited to play as I am though. My sister will probably freak and we'll end up playing for hours and hours again. As long as see can sing Help! she'll have a good time.
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| MTV movie awards |
[31 May 2009|10:43pm] |
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So I was asleep all day. I woke up to see Twilight winning practically every award on MTV tonight. Ugh, I don't get the hype about those movies/books at all. I miss when the that award show was entertaining, maybe not the best but it definitely used to have it moments:
Man, I love Jim.
Kings of Leon killed it, probably the highlight. I don't seem to ever get tired of that song.
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| Sci-fi overload |
[31 May 2009|06:16am] |
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So I finally saw Star Trek today...great! I really liked it even though I know very little about the series. I'm far from a trekkie. ( I hope this isn't like Harry Potter or X-men, where I slowly learn more and more until I'm a total nerd about it, but I actually wouldn't mind).
I don't know why but I felt/feel like spock. Is that weird? I related to him more than any of the other characters. I related, but really it was more like I have a huge crush on him. So smart and eloquent (sigh) I want a spock film, He and Uhura. Even though the rest of the characters/cast is just fantasic. They should branch out like "X-men origins" and give each of the characters thier own movies in a few years.. It would be a ton of footage but totally worth it.
Anyway, I went to the film alone, which was a strange miracle. Driving by yourself is one of the most comfortable, freeing things that you can do to clear your head...just make sure you have the right soundtrack for your mindset. I did get this weird sensation on the drive back, though. I get it sometimes when I'm walking, it's hard to explain. It's like a minor acid trip. I mean, I've never taken LSD but it seems just like the way they describe it. I lose track of time and my perspective shifts, like I'm watching life from somewhere else.. The car was stopped at red light and I could swear I saw it moving in reverse. I stared at the asphalt and it was shifting as if I was moving backward. My foot was pressed on the brake hard, and when I looked up at the other cars they weren't moving, just the road. I knew I wasn't rolling backwards and I knew that the road wasn't just dancing around on its own, but I could see and feel it happening. It wasn't real but it seem so honest to me.
Then we went grocery shopping and on the way out my mom stops by the vending machine to get a soda. So she takes a sip and looks out of the large windows they have by the exit and notices a fight going out. I don't like being nosy so I don't pay much attention, but when I look up I see a pretty large man (wide, not muscular) probably in his late 30s and an elderly man arguing. By the time I pay attention the fight had stopped and the younger man was walking away. My mom was grabbing your her cell and dialing while saying "He was just punching that elderly man". So....yeah, my mom called 911 because this poor old man got punched out in the parking lot of Wal-mart. Crazy.
Aside from that I acted like a sci-fi nerd AGAIN today. I make some brownies (with mint chocolate chip ice cream :D) and have been watching the first season of heroes since about 10 last night. Aww, I miss Peter and Simone from that season. He said he loved her in like, the fourth episode or something. I wanted them to be together.
I always loved that drawing too.
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| Leading your own spiritual journey is difficult. |
[21 May 2009|06:28pm] |
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 I had the best meditation the other day. I was completely gone. My body had bascially shut down and my mind was calm and active. It was like nothing I've ever felt before. Then, about 5 minutes later, I did it again. I haven't had the same success since then but I won't forget it. I'm practiciing more and more, finding different lectures and guidided meditations to follow. Aside from the meditation and yoga (which was really easy for me today) I've been having very vivid dreams.I had one about my wedding, then the next night I had one about sleeping with this guy. The guy in my dream was a boy named Jeremy from high school. We weren't even friends really, but he was in my dream and everyone thought we had sex, though we didn't. It was very bizzare. I spent most the dream explaining myself to people. It was the closest I've come to a lucid dream in a long time. I kept waking up and then falling back to sleep. When I went back to bed, I had some control in the dream but only for a few minutes. I really want to focus and have more lucid dreams. Practice, practice, practice...inhale, exhale. |
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| quick blog about nothing much |
[16 May 2009|06:19am] |
So much to be upset about...
but Patrick (or how he is loveingly refered to by me), Goofy Matt Rubano won college Jeperody! I didn't really pay a lot of attention but everytime I saw him he just reminded me of a goofy version of Matt from Taking Back Sunday.
Speaking of TBS, thier new stuff is growing on me. I've only heard "Sink into me" and "New Again". No matter how many memeber changes they always pull it together.
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| Happy Mother's Day |
[10 May 2009|04:59am] |
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So...
Friday my sister and I went to that new Thrift shop that openned up by my old job. It was within walking distance and I bought her this marker/crafts kit and I'm keeping the oil-pastels! It's nice because I'd like to finally add some color to my drawings. (It would help if my drawings were actually good)
As we left we had a little convo with the cashier that went something like this:
Cashier: Are you two sisters?
Me: yeah.
Cashier: yeah, I was on my smoking break when I saw you two coming down here. You guys seem like you actually get along. Most sisters try to kill each other. You two seem like you like each other.
(akward silence from me and Selena)
Cashier:...or is that not the case?
Me: She's a very good actress.
Then Selena wanted to wait outside for my mom to drive by. Crazy...
Then, yesterday my mom was on a mission to spend money (and buy a new TV) so we went to Target. She actually yelled at me in the store "Jazmine, buy something. Go! Now! You WILL NOT leave this store until you buy something!" I didn't get anything there but we went to wal-mart and I got these cute little candles and a holder. There's Hazelnut and Strawberry/kiwi yum! They have nice little one that are only 33 cents. So I'll probably got back and buy them regularly. I like a lit candle when I meditate. Plus they smell nice buy my bed. I also got two CDs. Rubber Soul and Classic Queen (a different classic queen album from the one I already have, of course).
Plus a new notebook for school. I now offically have money for school next term. I don't think I want to take it during the summer but I still have decide my classes and enroll soon.
And TODAY, I'm taking some pictures with Ashley in some new place I've never been before. We were supposed to go yesterday but my sleep pattern was so messed. I sleep right through her phone call. So I have to be up this afternoon. That's not looking too well because, it's 5:30 and I've been up since 10 last night on two and a half hours of sleep.I'm still not tired, and I really need to get some shut-eye before this after noon. Plus I"m still fixing all my music online, finding new meditation music, editing my new photos, and uploading them while writing this blog. I seriously need to find mom something for mothers' day. It's still early so I think I'll take the car down to the store and buy her some flowers and a card before she wakes up like I always do. Yeah, that seems like a good idea. Later!
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| Yay! |
[06 May 2009|04:25am] |
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So I randomly check my gift card for Barnes and Noble and they gave me my money back so I bought Being and Nothingness...again. Hopefully I'll get it this time.
I couldn't bring myself to finish Requiem of a Dream. I'm about an hour into it. It's a really great, intense movie so far, but it's kind of creepy to watch at one in the morning, in the dark, while the rest of the house is sleeping. Now it's about 4:30 and I still haven't picked up where I left off. I think when I see some sunshine I'll force myself to finish it. Why do I always do this? I saw Natural Born Kills at like 4 a.m. I don't know why I choose these hours to watch so odd films.
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| I am so lazy. |
[29 Apr 2009|04:56pm] |
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I haven't posted in the longest and I sat here with my "new post" tab open while I watched two episodes of the office. Something in me just doesn't ever want to post. (not that anyone reads this/cares anyway)
So I finally finished The Unbearable Lightness of Being. I decided to follow up with Go Ask Alice, because it was the smallest of my new books. As great ast TULOB was, I just felt like it took a every long time to finish. I bought the new Meg & Dia CD and have a little cash from babysitting. (i'm going to get the rest of my late birthday money and try to buy Catch 22. They have this new "classic books" section in target now! )
Today I took a bunch of photos in my backyard and in the woods. Then I tried a lot of motion shots. After lunch, I drew this picture slightly based on a Rafal Olbinski painting. It's pretty shitty, and a bad photo, oh well.
More photos from today,and birthday photos will be posted tonight....if I stop being so lazy.
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[13 Apr 2009|09:10pm] |
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I placed my order on Barnes&Noble.com this morning and everything was fine. Turns out one of the books I ordered is out of stock. They said they'd refund my money and they were sorry. No big deal.
Now my order shows the refund but that money isn't back on my gift card. So now I can't buy a different copy. I check my status and I still have ten dollars. I check my card balance and I only have $ 0.64. WHAT THE FUCK! Then it says that the amount might not display the purchases from the last two hours. But I got an e-mail telling me it was out of stock and refunded at 2:45 this afternoon. It's now 9:15. Such bullshit! Put the money back on my card so I can order a different copy of "Being and Nothingness" dammit!
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